Linjen Neogi


Doubts & Desires

Hi. My name is Linjen and I have been writing since I was a little girl. I still have more than a handful of diaries in a dusty box down in our basement, where I poured my heart out. I sometimes flip through those pages and ask myself if I could ever write like that again? Fearless. Honest. Those pages were an outlet, an escape for me. What I didn’t realize then was that I was nurturing a love, an obsession for an art that would one day become my identity. I still remember my 5th-grade teacher’s face and what she said when I wrote my first short story, “You wrote this?” I understood that she was happy with what I had written, but it wasn’t until several years ago that I understood that her content came from her learning about my honesty. She learned something about me that day. Something I strive to continue to learn about myself. Through writing is where I find my most pure self. I write this to you, my one-day constant reader, in hopes that we both learn about who I am ever evolving into. I hope that is someone I can make you proud of…maybe even just as proud as that 5th-grade teacher.

My writing has always been heavily influenced by my own painful experiences. I had a fascination for human emotion, though I did at times write about the beauty of my childhood.

And now, I suppose like many artists do, I have fallen in love with another form of art, Photography. I’m still learning, but I’m constantly inspired by my favorite muse, my son.

In my early 30s, my world fell to pieces. I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis and having just moved to New York, I felt alone and very angry at life. I stopped writing.

A year and a half later, I met a kind-hearted trader.  He helped me pick up the pieces, and I began to grow in endless ways. I found myself again. I married this kind-hearted man and returned to my writing. It is because of him that I created a blog.

So now I’m a Mami, wife, and still an artist at heart. Always an artist. But still learning to balance it all. I think one day I’ll get it right.

I live in New York City with my tribe; my loving four-year-old son, Ishaan Abraham, and my biggest critic, my husband Tapas. This is a journal of the moments I live. So here I am. With proverbial pen to paper, musing about all my doubts & desires.

I idolize everything NYC.

Featured in:

+A Child Grows In Brooklyn: My Fear As A SAHM,  Mothering Away Your Identity, and Dinner Party Conversations: On the Menu Awkward.

+IIT-Bombay Greater NY Chapter Alumni Magazine

+TestingMom.com: On Education From The Uneducated

Josie Urbistondo




Hi, my name is Josie. I have been entrusted the great honor of co-authoring this blog. I strive to participate in an exercise in honesty, love, beauty…truth.

Here’s my rant; I will make it brief. These days we are writing more. More tweets and status updates, but we are also losing the interiority of our selves. Writing that provides the space for thoughtful reflection is a dying art form. I love being a part of this endeavor, as it promotes such contemplation.

Who I am — the resume me: I am a lecturer at the University of Miami and an adjunct for Florida International University. I have a Ph.D. in English literature. I focus on composition, Caribbean and Latino literature and culture. I feel privileged to teach and absolutely love that my ‘office’ is a classroom. I am a wife, a mother, and a friend.

Thank you, Linjen and thank you, constant reader for participating in the contemplation of the self. Maybe we all learn a little bit of who we are, what we are doing here and why our souls have crossed paths today.

*Thank you Stephen King for giving us the phrase, constant reader.

You can reach me at josiedoubts@gmail.com. Or find me on LinkedIn, Facebook, and Instagram.

Publications –

***Featured in Miami New Times (June 2016)

***Featured in Latino Rebels (May 2016)

***Featured in A Child Grows in Brooklyn (March 2016)

*** “Interview with Gonzalo Fuenmayor.” Anthurium: A Caribbean Studies Journal 12. 2 (Dec 2015) <http://scholarlyrepository.miami.edu/cgi/viewcontent.cgi?article=1356&context=anthurium>. Web.

***“Bending Bone China: Juana Valdes’ Politics of the Skin.” Miradas: Revista digital de historia del arte y la cultura Ibérica e Iberoamericana. 2 (2015) <http://journals.ub.uni-heidelberg.de/index.php/miradas/article/view/22432>. Web.

***“To Dream, to Be: Chaviano’s The Island of Eternal Love and Mythical Postmemory. Un pueblo disperso: Dimensiones sociales y culturales de la diáspora cubana [A Dispersed People: Social and Cultural Dimensions of the Cuban Diaspora]. Edited by Jorge Duany, Valencia, Spain: Ediciones Aduana Vieja, 2014. Print.

***“Flags that Wave with Love: Juana Valdes’ Te Amo Project.” ARC Magazine. Features (December 2013) < http://arcthemagazine.com/arc/2013/12/flags-that-wave-with-love-juana-valdes-te-amo-project/>. Web.

***“Bodies Scared Sacred at the Crossroads: Vodou Loa Erzulie in Mayra Montero’s The Red of His Shadow and Ana-Maurine Lara’s Erzulie’s Skirt.” Hispanet Journal. 6 (March 2013) < http://www.hispanetjournal.com/Volume6.html>. Web.

***“Tuning in to the Role of Music in The Dragon Can’t Dance and The Harder They Come,” in Critical Perspectives on Caribbean Literature and Culture. Edited by Dorsía Smith, Tatiana Tagirova, and Suzanna Engman, Cambridge Scholars Press, 2010. Print.

***Many moons ago in Reader’s Digest Selecciones




  • zhoniu

    Wow!!! I love this story and i think your name is Fancy and i love it.
    Hey little girl dream is already so cute 🙂

    March 8, 2013 at 4:02 pm Reply
  • Maria Cederna

    Hey Linjen!
    I was looking through blogs and stumbled upon yours…crazy coincidence! Anyhow, I love everything you have written so far. Your 5th grade teacher was right, you are a good writer. Looking forward to reading some more insightful and inspiring posts! Most importantly, I am genuinely happy that you found your place! Xoxo, Maria

    May 27, 2013 at 8:38 am Reply
    • soulconalas

      Hi Maria,

      Thank you for your kind words and taking an interest in reading my blog. It’s a work in progress, but god!- I love it!

      I hope you’ll be back soon!

      All the best,

      June 7, 2013 at 12:32 pm Reply
  • maria arana

    It’s been so many years! I was very happy to stumble upon your blog and to see you are pursuing your life’s contempt. You have a beautiful family and look forward to reading future posts.
    Happy wishes from your middle school friend!
    Maria Arana

    February 15, 2015 at 6:32 pm Reply
    • soulconalas

      Hi Maria! It is so nice to hear from you and thank you for visiting my page. You have always been remembered with a smile. Hope this finds you well. My best to you always.

      February 21, 2015 at 4:07 pm Reply
  • Vanessa Bonitto

    I was telling my boyfriend the other day about how on my first day of kindergarten, a kind little girl named Linjen, took me under her wing and helped me socialize in ‘after school care’ at Charles R. Hadley. I told him I was lucky to meet her because I only knew Spanish ad was painfully shy. (I was trying to convince him why our baby girl needs to speak both English and Spanish before going to school).. I decided to look you up and came across your blog. I am so happy for you and glad you are following your passion for writing and being a SAHM. You are a beautiful person inside and out.
    P.S. – You haven’t changed a bit! Same looks, same spirit

    September 18, 2015 at 11:36 pm Reply
    • Linjen Neogi

      Vanessa! I can’t believe I see you here. On my blog! It’s so wonderful to hear from you. (I’m about to search for you as well. And apologies it took me so long to respond)

      Thank you for your words. They are full of love and warmth! I genuinely became emotional reading this. I always remember you as my first friend, period. My first best friend. I’m sending you love! Let’s try and keep in touch.

      January 2, 2016 at 5:03 pm Reply
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